But you did. You know that, right? Even if you didn't mean to, even though it's possible for the dead to come back, at the very least, you know emotionally you did damage to a lot of people.
Good. You're a little better than my brother then. He was like this too, keeping things from everyone even if it made him seem like a villain, because he thought it was for the best, or he couldn't talk about things without losing his power.
Like, there were rumors he killed our father to take over his position. And he kept what really happened a secret so he could never refute it. It really pissed me off how much he kept to himself, the burden he carried on his own, just because he thought it would keep me safe.
He pisses me off. We barely ever get along. But... we're brothers. [This is his tsun way of saying he loves him too.]
When people die in Amatsuki, where me and Shinonome came from, they wake up in the world Shinonome is actually from. I need to survive school so I can go to Shinonome's world and punch Bon for dying on me.
Amatsuki isn't "real". Futaba said it sounds like a video game? Shinonome is from Higan, the "real" world but he was himself inside Amatsuki. My brother is Bonten in Amatsuki but he's someone else in Higan.
Some people in Amatsuki only exist there. I guess it's like "NPCs"? So when Amatsuki is destroyed, which it's about to be, all of those people will be deleted too.
I didn't want... I didn't want people to know because I thought it'd make me a target. Since I'm not even a real person. But I think the humans here are... kind. And that's why people had to be tricked and manipulated into killing the way this story wants.
I'd have to agree. No one's ever really wanted to kill, and the circumstances have just gotten more painful by the week.
[ How well she knows this. ]
But I'd hesitate to call you anything but real, you know. You have your beliefs and convictions. You feel emotions, just like the rest of us. If anyone says otherwise, I'd have to probably twist an arm or two.
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week 5, wednesday
Otome. I wanted to talk to you.
[He seems very serious though not angry yet.]
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[ And she turns towards him expectantly. ]
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I'm not going to... ask about what you did or why. I know you can't talk about it.
[After what happened to Adora...]
But... I just... how much of what you've done and said is the truth?
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[ Firmly. ]
I never wanted to hurt anyone.
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But you did. You know that, right? Even if you didn't mean to, even though it's possible for the dead to come back, at the very least, you know emotionally you did damage to a lot of people.
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I know. I don't intend to forget it.
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Like, there were rumors he killed our father to take over his position. And he kept what really happened a secret so he could never refute it. It really pissed me off how much he kept to himself, the burden he carried on his own, just because he thought it would keep me safe.
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[ Though she can also understand why he would be upset. ]
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He pisses me off. We barely ever get along. But... we're brothers.
[This is his tsun way of saying he loves him too.]
When people die in Amatsuki, where me and Shinonome came from, they wake up in the world Shinonome is actually from. I need to survive school so I can go to Shinonome's world and punch Bon for dying on me.
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[ wow, that's a lot. ]
Is it possible for you to go there without dying yourself?
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[Making a face, but continuing.]
Amatsuki isn't "real". Futaba said it sounds like a video game? Shinonome is from Higan, the "real" world but he was himself inside Amatsuki. My brother is Bonten in Amatsuki but he's someone else in Higan.
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[ she's so confused?? ]
Or do you have a counterpart in that world where your brother is?
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Some people in Amatsuki only exist there. I guess it's like "NPCs"? So when Amatsuki is destroyed, which it's about to be, all of those people will be deleted too.
That's why I need the wish to be true.
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You stand a chance of being deleted otherwise.
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I didn't want... I didn't want people to know because I thought it'd make me a target. Since I'm not even a real person. But I think the humans here are... kind. And that's why people had to be tricked and manipulated into killing the way this story wants.
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[ How well she knows this. ]
But I'd hesitate to call you anything but real, you know. You have your beliefs and convictions. You feel emotions, just like the rest of us. If anyone says otherwise, I'd have to probably twist an arm or two.
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What happened to "first do no harm"?
[He knows this now because he's been studying.]
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... Besides, I've already had to break that oath here. [ Which. She winces while saying because she absolutely hates it. ]
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... Well I'm not in any place to judge you. I killed a lot of humans back home.
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[ Wow, he's grown so much. ]
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